Cloudy

Good early morning.
I just have a few things to get off my chest and there is no better place than my diary/blog ne.

I know there has been a decent amount of time between my last post and now,well there is a reason for that.It’s not like I don’t have anything to write home about,because I have honestly have so much to say in terms of my trip,meeting someone special,and overcoming something that plagued me for most of my life… The funny thing is,I have been thinking about making this strictly a place to promote my drawings (lol),not that they are anything spectacular,but I love the idea of sharing something I created with like-minded people or just anyone passing by.I wanted to not only promote it,but I wanted to share the meaning behind it,the atmosphere that it was conceived in,and just overall chat with you all.That was the plan AFTER I talked about my trip to Mexico…but I lost sight of it all after a life-altering event took place.

A week or so after my return to Japan,I lost my mother.She was my only living parent and now she is reunited with my father and elder brother.I won’t go into great detail but maybe you can see a connection here.I wanted to write so much,I truly did.I grappled and struggled with logging in and beginning to write,only to have my emotions lead my original draft into an emotional spiral.Soon I would log off and turn off my computer entirely and just sit in my darkened room,reflecting how much I have lost and how I can’t function regularly as before.It became overwhelming and thus,my intent to write about the happiest time of my life and go forward with a new blogging directions ceased to come to life.
Right now,This post is the real me…no false face to hide pain,not ignoring what is happening,and just accepting that my blogging style is just raw human emotion.I guess me writing from the heart is more sincere than trying to foolishly promote art.

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異なる- Different

Rapid hearts racing eagerly towards a nervous collision.
I finally found you after so long apart
Your eyes swept me away into an oasis of nervous ecstasy
The words escaping your lips sung a melody of familiar tranquility
Your touch ignited my soul into a vibrant hue
I was changed

Walking underneath shared skies made life a tolerable quest.I was by your side,hand in hand,and laughing the daylight away.The midday breeze constantly reminded me that i was truly living the reality I foresaw 2 years ago.The nightfall was illuminated by the graceful moon,surrounding itself with it’s audience of stars.Dared I count them all,only to fail and be rewarded with sweet kiss to stamp the night.
My days were born anew

Since I’ve met you,my life hasn’t been the same and I always ask to nobody listening for a chance to go back and do it all same.Deaf ears were only present.
Soon,I shall be with you and we will create undeniable memories.

Different

Collision

おはよう,my sweet blog!
So this is just a quick post about one of my drawings that i was recently(5 minutes ago) thinking about.

This drawing is my protagonist,drawn in the style of Visual Kei.Visual Kei or VK is a music genre here in Japan that could range from pop,rock,and metal.The special theme of this genre is the emphasis on the bands’ unique appearance.Alot of it is of the androgynous style and that’s why it works.Being a Harajuku teen AND adult,I can vouch for everyone when I say that style without borders is a style of creative freedom.

Anyways,whenever I draw or just doodle,I am always listening to music.Music fuels whatever I draw and I just happened to be listening to my favourite VK band “The GazettE”.The style used is based off a costume I saw Ruki(lead vocals) wearing and I just let the music lead my hands during this piece.It was so much fun!

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Stuck

Hey guys,how’s it going?
So I have gotten back into the mood of drawing/sketching again and I want to upload my creations to sites that will appreciate them.The thing is,I mainly upload them to Twitter and Instagram and i suuuuuck at attaching the appropriate eye-catching hashtags to get them seen lol.So yeah…I have hit a wall as to where and how to upload my art properly.I know DeviantArt still exists,but someone told me that site is useless now.
So all suggestions and advice is greatly appreciated.

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Crush

So I finally got around to finishing the ink work on this sketch.Im pretty satisfied with.It only took 5 months to complete lol.

The funny/pathetic story about this piece is that I drew this based on something dumb I did.As you can see,the mask guy represents me because,well…I am the masked blogger and the pink hair woman is my crush.
I have a huge crush on the pink hair woman and we have each other added on all of our social media sites.I generally like to play it “cool” and not comments or like post(don’t ask why.I’m weird).I was stalking her page and I accidentally hit the “like” button on one of her post and I immediately retracted it lol.My head was flooded with “what-if” scenarios of getting caught.It was pretty silly and it gave birth to the idea of this drawing.Fun times yo!

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友達 y Amiga

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This is a drawing of me and my best friend from Mexico.I drew it earlier this year and it was a bit difficult to draw for me in the beginning.Alot of it had to do with I don’t know what is her go-to style of clothing and a theme that would represent our friendship.After I’ve decided on the clothing,everything else became simple.The theme became “clingy and shy” lol.I am clinging over her shoulder and she is giving a shy smirk.It’s been the theme of our friendship that has extended over 5+ years now.
We had a bit of a falling out recently which is my fault.I hope to make amends with you one day,but I want everyone to know that my best friend from Mexico has influenced me in such a way that she found herself in one of my drawings.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GETTING ME HOOKED ON GAME OF THRONES!!

Hiatus No More

I have been away for quite some time,ne?I guess that is my fault….well IT IS my fault.The reason for my extended absence is a result of my mental health(depression) reaching an all time high and My lack of interest in anything(depression again).That is a subject I will touch upon in a later post,but I want to make this quick and simply state that I am back.

My drawing above came from a dream I had last night about how people perceive me topless compared to what I actually look like without a shirt.I’m quite the sack of bones ne?Lol.I got a good chuckle from sketching this.I plan to post more of my artwork here often.If you are ever curious to check out my other stuff,you can always check my instagram ( http://www.instagram.com/knky0 ) for more and if you really like it,follow me.It would be greatly appreciated no matter what you choose to do yo!^.^

Thank you all for reading!

真紅-Krimson

Red Thoughts

I’ve considered yesterday
I’m debating tomorrow
Resting beside the Krimson river
Reflections of a life bare afloat

It’s only me
It’s only you
It’s only who
It’s only death

Take my hand
Plunge into the Krimson river
Lets drown anew
If only it’s with you

I am smiling
You all are crying
The skies are silent
It’s only Krimson death

満足- Satisfaction

Halloween

Halloween happened last weekend and I hope everyone had a fun and safe time.As for the kiddies that got tons of candy,don’t ruin your precious pearly white teeth!Hahaha.
I remember the first time that I heard about “trick-or-treating” from one of my western friends because that isn’t a thing here in Japan.Upon learning about adults giving out FREE candy to children dressed in constume and yelling “TREAT OR TREAT!”,I turned to my friend with a stern face,fierce eyes,a strong voice,and uttered the words, “CAN ADULTS GET FREE CANDY TOO!?”Of course,my baka friend didn’t missed the opportunity to bash my hopes and dreams with a mocking “NO!”
Oh well!A boy can dream ne?

Anyways,I wanted to vent a while here.
Last month,I have gained a second job which is part time.It’s a pretty cool tech selling and repair shop.I get to interact with lots of people and be a nerd all the while doing a job well done!Hahahaha.
But…I still don’t feel satisfied.I don’t know why.I have been longing for a second job for almost a year now,and now that I have finally obtained one,I still feel as if I am not doing nearly enough.I am starting to feel like I need a THIRD job!!Isn’t that insane!?
I guess vi need to try to be content with what I have right now ne….Oh well.

That is all I have for today.I really missed this blog of mine.
Thank you for being patient with my lazy bum!
Until next post,Take care!