“Float all over the world just to see her again, and I won’t show or feel any pain
Even though all my armor might rust in the rain”
Those are lyrics to the song: “Up with the birds” by “Coldplay”.I don’t understand why song lyrics are popping out and relating to my pathetic situation now!!It’s quite funny though.That set lyrics describe a situation that i find myself in and I’m preparing my “armour” to definitely rust in the rain when i get there.lol.Cheers to spending New Years alone,kanpai yo!I’m screwed lol.
My father had a philosophy for new months.He believed that if you start the first day of the month with a smile,dancing soul,and giving heart,the month would be generous to you.I followed that my entire life,but this month….I realized that I haven’t slept in 4 days,been bawling my eyes out,and just disconnected from everyone and everything.Sorry dad,I suck this month.
Back to the subject of sleep,I slept a grand total of 6 minutes in the last 4 days yo!I know this because it happened earlier this morning because I had a dream that The lady I like,myself,and my mom(i don’t know why she was there) were talking outside a grocery store about our situation and the lady I like was going to explain something important to me,but my mother pulled me away.All I could remember was the lady’s sad face.It’s haunting.I really hope you aren’t really wearing a frown.Please SMILE!Let me take all of this yo!
Point is….I’m mentally,physically,and emotionally exhausted,therefore I am a zombie!
I will keep my mind busy by studying Spanish.That’s right,Japanese Kyo will soon morph into Mexican Kyou!!lol.Wish me luck.
I have been away for quite some time,ne?I guess that is my fault….well IT IS my fault.The reason for my extended absence is a result of my mental health(depression) reaching an all time high and My lack of interest in anything(depression again).That is a subject I will touch upon in a later post,but I want to make this quick and simply state that I am back.
My drawing above came from a dream I had last night about how people perceive me topless compared to what I actually look like without a shirt.I’m quite the sack of bones ne?Lol.I got a good chuckle from sketching this.I plan to post more of my artwork here often.If you are ever curious to check out my other stuff,you can always check my instagram ( http://www.instagram.com/knky0 ) for more and if you really like it,follow me.It would be greatly appreciated no matter what you choose to do yo!^.^
Halloween happened last weekend and I hope everyone had a fun and safe time.As for the kiddies that got tons of candy,don’t ruin your precious pearly white teeth!Hahaha.
I remember the first time that I heard about “trick-or-treating” from one of my western friends because that isn’t a thing here in Japan.Upon learning about adults giving out FREE candy to children dressed in constume and yelling “TREAT OR TREAT!”,I turned to my friend with a stern face,fierce eyes,a strong voice,and uttered the words, “CAN ADULTS GET FREE CANDY TOO!?”Of course,my baka friend didn’t missed the opportunity to bash my hopes and dreams with a mocking “NO!”
Oh well!A boy can dream ne?
Anyways,I wanted to vent a while here.
Last month,I have gained a second job which is part time.It’s a pretty cool tech selling and repair shop.I get to interact with lots of people and be a nerd all the while doing a job well done!Hahahaha.
But…I still don’t feel satisfied.I don’t know why.I have been longing for a second job for almost a year now,and now that I have finally obtained one,I still feel as if I am not doing nearly enough.I am starting to feel like I need a THIRD job!!Isn’t that insane!?
I guess vi need to try to be content with what I have right now ne….Oh well.
That is all I have for today.I really missed this blog of mine.
Thank you for being patient with my lazy bum!
Until next post,Take care!
“Stand firm and shut your mouth.”
Those were my sister’s words a few hours ago.I wanted to respond with, “You shut up,baka!”,but I knew she was correct.I run my mouth a bit too much when I feel the need to try to handle certain things.My big mouth is what gets me in trouble a lot these days yo!I don’t know why I feel I must explain everything,but it comes simple to me.It’s a bad habit that I am working hard to drop now.
Note to self; “Shut your mouth,Kyosuke!
These days,I seem to have lost my mood for anything.I haven’t been updating my blog regularly,I haven’t been posting on Twitter as much lately,and I lost my drive to sketch yo!It’s a pain in my ass to be like this.Depressed and uninspired.Sigh…
Life waits for no one ne?I guess I better dust off my running shoes and blaze the path before me ne?Yes.That seems to be the best solution to my inner madness yo!Run with a strong heart,inspired mind,and piercing eyes.Let’s go!!
Well,I guess I am finished with my useless ranting.Soooooooooo,it’s time to shut off my phone and rest my insomniac head yo!I haven’t slept since arriving home from work at 3am this morning!Woooooooooo.
So I sign off with this words….
I thank you all for showing the less bit of interest in my blog.It really does mean a lot to me.Thank you all.
Until next time…
I hope you all are fairing much better than meよ！Haha.I am currently suffering from a predictable bout of the spring time allergies.Burning itchy thoat,watery itchy eyes,and the dreadful uncontrollable sneezingよ！Ugh!
Anyways,im not going to infect this post with banter about my allergies.So Ikuze!
I am a firm believer that everyone alive possesses some form of talent.Whether it is singing,dancing,acting,designing,speech,etc.We all possess some ability.As with every talented person,there are certain things that fires you upね?There are certain people we compete with as rivals because you feel you can compete on their level or above.I have an inspiration to why i want to get better at my craft.I’ll share a story.
The photo above is a drawing i did a few years ago for Panda’s birthday.Her Name is Eka,but she prefers Deb,but she’ll always be called my pandaよ！Hehehe.It’s a special reason and story behind that nickname.But i’ll save it for another time.
The reason why i chose this drawing out of my entire catalog of other works is due to the fact that this photo represents what i meant about a certain reason that makes you better than you usually are.
When i first met panda,we told each other our dreams and we supported each other.She wants to write a novel and i will say,she written a really good story that i hope get published soonよ！My dream is to be a mangaka(comic book artist/author).
For many years i have known her,she has been my biggest supporter.She would say “I can’t wait to see your manga in bookstore in Indonesia.”
That always made me smile and really work harderよ！A few years ago,I drew that photo for her birthday,because we have a tradition to always draw for each other,so i made it my goal to draw her something beyond my own ability.I drew that photo above for her birthday because i wanted to see her smile.
To this very day,that photo remains my best work.All because of panda.So i say to you panda,Thank you so very much for always being a great inspiration to meよ！
Whatever talents you all possess,find that reason to improve upon it and let us leave behind a beautiful creative worldよ！
Until next entry
Is where I been all of this time yo!Haahaha.Hello everyone.Well,I should say,Good early morning everyone.It’s about 7 minutes away from 4AM at the time of writing and I am dead tired and sick yo!Fever is kicking my ass all over this room.
Actually,I was struck by a car 3 months ago after walking home from work,buuuuut…I never made it home from work yo!hehe,I nearly had my soul knocked from my body yo!Maybe it did happen,because I actually was in a coma for 2 months (most of January and February).Bad news for my haters,I AM STILL ALIVE YO!!!MWAHAHAHAHAH!
Anywho,It’s been a crazy reality since I reopened my eyes,and I will tell you all why,but not into detail.
I actually woke up to bad news(that I totally caused) and with that,I hurt and disappointed two people that have known me for years.There is a reason they should hate my guts,but I do once again say,I am sorry.
Secondly,I befriended someone really cool,and sharp tongue baka.Hahahahah.She is my punching bag but a cool writer who is cho lazy.Maybe more lazier than me yo!
Lastly,A dear friend I feared would never return has came back and I am beyond words to describe my joy for that return yo!SPEECHLESS yo!
With that said,Welcome to the matrix,KYOSUKE!!lol.
I’ll be blogging more regularly now that my hands and coordination skills have returned yo!
Until next post,Take care everyone
Want to know a secret about me?Well…I am an emotional person!Surprise!
Whenever I feel depressed,sad,or down right pissed off; whether it be at life,relationships,work,or my own self doubts.I don’t yell,become violent or break things,I draw.Just take a look at the pic above.
A product of listening to Dir En Grey and being angry for 5 hours straight!I am satisfied now.
I have been on a roll lately with drawing my little buddy,Kyobot.*Points to the above picture*
Kyobot was an idea I drew on a whim,based on my emotions a few years ago.I was originally annoyed by all my work and personal life,hence the crazed looking face in the top of the picture.I recently went back and looked at the photo and I realized something,I could totally make a mini series about this little wacky character yo!
So,I am writing and brainstorming all at once about the story and other characters to include with Kyobot.
Just wanted to make a little post about that.Hehehe
Thanks for reading everyone.
Until next post,take care yo!