I have been waking up a lot recently asking myself, “If I shall never open my eyes again,what will be my legacy?”.
Why thinking so deep when morning cycle is a new phase?Well,I have been reminiscing about my elder brother this past week,and what he left behind when he departed this world.
Shinobu Mashiro is my eldest brother,second oldest amongst my siblings,husband,genius,and all around goofball.
Most of us (within my family and friends) know him to be that one guy that has a solution for everything.You could ask him for advice to homework problem,personal situation,financial issue,even dumb question regarding the right method to building a time machine.With a silly laugh and never ending smile,he would say “If you manage to successfully build a time machine,i want you to go back in time so that you can explain to my past self the blueprints,because present me can only look like he has the knowledge.”
We just call him a ‘baka(fool)’ then we laugh with him.
It was rare to see him not smiling.He has always been that sibling that carried the positive aura no matter where he went.He always found a way to make you smile.
At age 19,he was diagnosed with cancer,and we all took the news rough….except for Mashi-nii.After we all became somber because of the news,he started singing in his weird voice and we just laughed.Nothing could stop him from spreading his contagious smile to all around him.
July of 2013,Mashiro’s condition became too much for his body to endure.He lost much weight,his hair became very thin and fading to grey,and then he slipped into a coma.His coma left us all without his smile and it made us all feel helpless.The person that always was there when we needed assistance,we were powerless to return the favour.
After 2 weeks in his coma,he had awaken to me,my other siblings,mother,his wife,and our friends.While we all were in tears and happy to have him back,he smiled confidently at us and said,”Can someone order a pineapple pizza?I feel like an empty bottle.”
His wife called him an idiot and we all shared the biggest smile and laughter of a lifetime.
An hour and 53 minutes later,he passed away with his wife by his side.Just a peaceful face as if he were telling us he is going to be fine.His facial expression said “please smile for me.”
It was heartbreaking to lose him,but he left a lasting impression on everyone he has ever met.Whenever someone talks about him,they remember him while smiling.
My brother’s legacy was the one person,no matter what was happening in your life,he gave you a smile.Such a wonderful legacy,big brother.
As my life carries on,although I have made mistakes,I wish to crave out a positive legacy that will make others remember me with calm emotion.
Thank you for reading.