Wow!!!!It’s that time of year again!!!
O christmas tree,O christmas tree,How lovely are your branches…..No seriously.Before i completely break out in song,i’ll just blog it like only i know how!
For all of you peeps(my western friends and sleeping asian peeps)Today is currently DECEMBER 24TH!!!!NO WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!*Jumping on the bed and slapping my knees*
No!I’m not doing any of that mess.I am parked in my bed in the dead of early morning hours and pounding away on my Toshiba laptop’s keyboard to deliver my first entry of this month.
So……旅を取りましょう！(Let’a take a Journey!)
Christmas,or as i like to mispronounce it,Kurisumasu has always been my favourite time of the year.Not because of the gift giving,nor the shopping(my least favourite part because im a cheapo bastard),but due to the festive atmosphere that the winter’s cold,yet graceful air infused with cheery songs and people out and busy looking for gifts for their loved ones.I used to love sitting outside in the bitter cold air,not concerning of whether i would get sick later because i loved the winter’s silent air and the bright colours of Christmas decorations.That feeling…..such a feeling can only be described as the “Christmas Spirit.”
This year…..not so much.
As you can see in my poorly drawn Kyos(plural)of Kurisumasu past and Kurisumasu present,When i was a boy,man!I used to love waking up to Kurisumasu!Presents under the tree,waking up my siblings and telling them to accompany me to see if Santa left us anything.(Yes i still believe in that creepy jolly guy)
It was one of my best times as a kid.because in my youth,my family wasn’t a wealthy one,nor did we have money to travel for the season,but Mom and Dad made sure there were gifts for us all and the thought of them giving from the kindness of their hearts,eventhough we not have much money,it was a miracle!Their love of seeing other’s happiness,even they not receive in exchange,made me come to enjoy Kurisumasu not only for the gifts,but for the festive mood and peace that it brings my heart.
This year,I don’t know.I’m just not up for the decorations,the songs i used to love to horribly sing,nor even stepping outside to gaze upon the festive atmosphere that has gripped my dear Tokyo.I wouldn’t say old age is upon me,because i’m still 28 years sexy and young!Don’t misunderstand or i will be kicking asses.(Forgive me for the naughtiness,Santa)
Where is Kyo’s Kurisumasu Spirit?Where is that guy that just explained how he loved the mood?I won’t say he is gone,but rather misplaced.
My sole happiness for each 28 years on this very festival(yes,i said festival,so sue me)was the fact that i was always with my family.Mother,Father and siblings,but its like pattern,each 14 years,i lose one and this year was no different.I look at life now,what was once a full living family photo,is becoming faded and i just miss my family so much during this time.I miss laughing with them,hearing them play songs of the season when we gather,and enjoying Mother’s cooking altogether.
My Kurisumasu spirit is “Family”
I am happy for those i have,but i do long for those i have lost.So this year,it’s going to be quite lonesome,but Kyo is not totally sad.I may not be celebrating this year,but i still love this time of year more than any other time!Besides,I’m going to get candy so life is SWEEEEEEEEEEET!!
From me to you all,i wish you all the grandest most peaceful holiday with your family,your loved ones,and friends.Spread cheer and sing the lyrics of peace and fill the night skies with lasting happy memories.